Chicken News

There’s been some activity in the flock the past few months. Thought I’d give you an update, since the chickens and their antics are quite popular on the blog!

First, this chicken, who I’ve been calling Beauty for obvious reasons, took up residence in a small nest by the front door, sitting on a rock day and night. She’s been broody since the beginning, but I hoped she would set up shop in the coop after we moved the chickens from the barn to the new coop.

Actually, I hoped she would LAY EGGS, but OK.

This lasted for weeks, though she often left her nest in the morning for about an hour to eat in the coop and take a dirt bath to cleanse herself of mites. She’s healthy and I got used to her being there, though I felt awful for her on those days when the air conditioner was running right beside her.

Meanwhile, the other three chickens were delivering two eggs a day. Not too shabby. And best of all, they laid them in the fenced in area, under the coop, every day. In other words, I could always find them. Bonus.

But I really want more eggs. I am still buying eggs to cover us through the weekend, since Steve eats two a day during landscaping season.

My friend Scott Pauley, who is a master seed saver and has in recent years gotten into bird breeding, had a bunch of chicks in June and offered me three hens once we could tell them from the roosters. I said I had one real criteria: good layers.

So last Sunday we picked up these lovelies. They are small, which is quite nice. The fathers were jet black Australorps. The mothers were a Rhode Island Red/White Rock cross called Tetras. All three breeds are excellent layers. I have high hopes for these girls.

So far they stay in the fenced area during the day. But the second and third evenings, two of them slipped out and slept somewhere in the wild. The third one slept alone in the small coop, while the Americaunas claimed the big coop.

Then, something amazing happened. We have a housepainter here, Richie Palmersheim. He’d made some comments about telling Beauty that her rock had hatched and she could go now. When he got to her area he tossed the rock away and flattened the ground that was her nest, covering it with arbor vitae leaves.

And Beauty was free! She rejoined the flock! And now she roams around all day eating bugs, and sleeps in the big coop. So heartwarming. I had no idea. From now on I’ll give her a couple weeks on an egg or rock and then “hatch” it for her.

The past few days I’ve shut the door in the late afternoon, before the white chickens slip out, and they’re bonding with the small coop. I don’t expect to get eggs from them this season, but come spring, OK! And I’m going to try my best to bond them to the laying boxes (see how I used dish towels to make them think they were private??) so they’ll lay inside the fence.

So now there are seven. And the disrupted Americaunas, who couldn’t get access to the coop for one day while I kept the whites quarantined, have set up a secret nest somewhere in the prairie.

Which means, of course…. zero eggs.

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Eating Year Round from the Garden

I am always conscious of my real gardening goal– to eat from the garden year round. That is no small thing when one lives in Minnesota. I was talking to a woman I work with who lives in Florida and she harvested her first tomato yesterday! And her basil plants have doubled in size in two weeks. Wow. I just transplanted my tomato plants to the greenhouse beds last week, in the hopes of having a tomato before August 1. Right now they don’t look too promising!

But Saturday I harvested the first asparagus of the year. And I still had one little baggie of potatoes left from 2017, this interesting variety that have purple skin and a purple core surrounded by a ring of white flesh. While many of them sprouted in the storage boxes in the basement and got replanted, these have been in the fridge for a few months now. And so — Fall 2017 meet Spring 2018. Also consumed this week the last of the garlic, though if I wanted to, I could start eating “spring garlic” from the garden now, the green shoots (not scapes yet) that grow off the young bulbs. I have spring onions and greens and lettuce as well. The pantry will be empty (save a couple jars of jam) after I use the last half jar of tomatoes in tonight’s dinner.

Add a little salmon and you have a gourmet meal!

It is hard to describe the pleasure these meals give me. Asparagus season is an amazing time of year. This little yellow “produce bag” is kind of miraculous. Even though I only harvest a few spears a day, when I go looking for asparagus for dinner I usually have a full bag! It seems to reproduce in there, making what seems like an insignificant harvest into a feast.

And so you have it. Canned tomatoes, meet a frozen package of winter squash for soup. Dried garden beans, meet garlic and thyme and “Old Roosty’s” broth. Last bags of frozen shredded zucchini, you can be a fritter with some chicken eggs. Life is very good.

 

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Hey! A Garden Post!

Today was supposed to be the day to plant potatoes and asparagus crowns. Potatoes got planted, but also took care of the delivering of the new chicken coop. We’re now a two-coop household, or more like a giant coop with a link to the smaller one (where dear God let them lay their eggs instead of laying them in some hidden nest!!) I’m tempted to call the new coop something special like the Coop 9000. It’s like a spaceship, really. See how it dwarfs the old coop?

The idea is that with all this space they can live out here year around. I’ll put a small heat lamp in there in the winter.

This has been one of the least stressful garden planting season I can remember. Here it is April 28, and the onions, leeks, radishes, greens, beets, lettuce, parsley, and potatoes are planted. Even though there was a foot of snow on the ground ten days ago, all the “cool-weather” planting are in before May.

One thing that made this planting season less stressful is that there was snow so late– it was very clear that you couldn’t plant yet. Then when the snow melted, the temperature got consistently above freezing (after all, it’s almost May!) and so one could feel safe putting the potatoes in the ground.

The other thing that made this season less stressful is that I’m giving up on the large area behind my garden where I used to plant potatoes, onions, beans and, last year, winter squash. I’ve been amending that clay for six years and it is still horrible soil for planting potatoes and a real pain in the neck to dig. Also, I have to wait for Steve to till it and bring in compost. And that is super stressful. So I’m going to just use my 19 raised beds (!!), 5 in the greenhouse and 14 outside. And how great is that! I planted 24 row feet and four grow bags of potatoes in a mix of compost, leaves, and mushroom compost today. I can put my watering system in place and water them easily! And there will be many fewer weeds and it’s just such a better environment. Hopefully they will be very productive and we’ll have lots of potatoes.

I also am so happy that we have greens in the greenhouse! I planted them back in March, and they grew a tiny bit then just hung out during the snow storms and freezing nights, until the last 10 days they shot up and filled the box! Salad last night and salad tonight. I made a pasta sauce with the last of some frozen cherry tomatoes (really sweet, paste-like sauce) and have one more jar of tomatoes. I’m so glad to have fresh greens! And in April– right on time.

I’m working on the garden plan, and still have to get some new asparagus plants in a raised bed. But really, all the things that “must” go in before May 15 (the final frost date) are in. The tomato and pepper seedlings can go to the greenhouse for their final growth, and cucumbers can also be transplanted and the trellises put up. All in good time.

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The Story Beneath the Story

burial vault set-up display http://www.chesapeakevault.com/

I’m writing a novel. I’m in a yearlong novel writing class, in fact. And it is not a happy story. In fact, the story is quite depressing. And so I’ve been going around the past two weeks especially asking myself why on earth I feel compelled to tell this story.

The novel did not start in depressing territory– well, no more depressing than anything else. It started with a man with an occupation, a middle-aged man living near Grand Forks, North Dakota, who delivers burial vaults. Most people don’t even know there are burial vaults involved in burials, concrete vaults into which the casket is placed and that secure the casket against the elements. Nor do they know that the burial vault delivery guy is the one who provides “graveside services,” setting up the canopy, the chairs, the green Astroturf surround. They probably think all this comes from the funeral home.

This particular burial vault delivery guy as a large, rural territory. And as he goes out and does burials, he brings his 82-year-old father with him.

But as I explored my character’s life, I found he had three daughters. And to one was born a child who wasn’t thriving. Diagnosed with “failure to thrive,” she is removed from the home. This story comes from the life of my former sister-in-law, and the moment when my first marriage fell apart, right at the moment that I might have taken custody of this child who was not thriving. And over the past decade, with no contact with that family, I have puzzled what happened to this child, before and after the diagnosis, and what happened to my sister-in-law. So when this child and mother appeared in my novel, though they are not at all my sister-in-law or her child, but fictional characters, it became my way to explore the story.

And no matter how you look at it, this is a depressing story. It is a story about Fetal Alcohol Spectrum Disorder (FASD), which is much more prevalent than we think (about 1 in 1,000 children), and which is still not diagnosed, still labeled “failure to thrive,” a label that throws all the blame on the mother in a way that she can probably never climb out, because without a diagnosis, there can be no real therapeutic response. And though of course FASD also places blame squarely on the mother, it is a diagnosis of past behavior with a hope of, if nothing else, attention and therapies and support for the present and future of both mother and child.

And this morning, I realized why this story is so urgent to me. Why it is the story I tell, united to the other stories I tell and have told. My interest is in the story beneath the story, the story hidden and disguised and denied and suppressed. I want to bring those stories to light an make us look at them and face them. Even when the diagnosis is bleak. Because I do believe that it is only in seeing that story beneath the story (and I won’t call either “truth,” although that is what I would have said about the earlier stories-beneath-the-story, because I am not sure here in my maturity I believe in truth, though I do believe in honesty and I believe in a way forward that is based on a narrative that not only most closely reflects objective reality but also that has hope built into it).

One thing that is true of the process of writing these stories is that they are a work of incessant revision. I have to learn to tell “the real story” myself, and my characters, particularly the mother of this child, but also everyone around her, want to lie and tell other stories. So I have to keep interrogating them and figuring out what is really going on so that in the end we can all face it to move forward.

The question is, will I be able to keep the audience reading? Will they be willing to go with me and trust me that even though all will not in the end be “fine,” there will be hope and a way forward?

When I came to Minnesota in 2005-06 as a resident scholar at a Benedictine Abbey with a group of religious scholars at the Collegeville Institute, one of my projects was to explore what it means to be a Catholic author. Like all Catholics who write, I suppose I’ve always wanted to be Flannery O’Connor. I do not have her inventiveness or command of figurative language. My worlds are so much more “realistic.” But I do have her theology of grace and of redemption that comes by way of crucifixion. I am only just beginning to understand what that means.

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Oncology at the Gym

It has been a long, cold winter. We would have liked significantly more snow than we received, and significantly fewer days below zero. But now I’ve set up my first tray of seeds: leeks, red onions and garlic, on the growing table. Steve is building me a larger, new-and-improved chicken coop so my chickens won’t have to go to the barn in winter but can live full-time in my backyard. Then it’s on to repairing machinery and getting the greenhouse ready.

The first week in January I started physical therapy. My shoulder was still bothering me and I was in a cycle of working too hard and injuring myself then doing nothing. After six weeks of baby steps, the shoulder no longer hurt, I had more range of motion, and we were moving on to my core. There’s nothing really wrong/injured with my core, other than not having a single ab muscle, so I ended PT.

I went straight to the nearby gym, though, signed up and got myself a physical trainer. I knew I needed to keep building, slowly, and needed accountability. We have had two sessions and she is delightful. She is the 13th of 15 children, grew up on a nearby farm, and she is also a cancer survivor, soft-tissue sarcoma. We share an oncologist.

I was gearing up for a good set of leg presses when I realized my oncologist, Dr. U., was across from me on the ab crunch machine. Dr. U. is a beautiful Nigerian man, and I had never seen him in anything but a suit before, so it took me a few takes. Of course his workout clothes were on point. Although he is known for his laugh, he is also a formal, somewhat reserved person. I ran into him once at the cafe at the Cancer Center back when I was in treatment, and he did not stop to make small talk. I wasn’t sure what the etiquette was, but determined to let him do his workout unbothered.

As we progressed through the circuit, another woman came over to shake his hand and thank him for the care he provided for her friend. Then another person walked by and greeted him. He was sitting in the machine next to me when my trainer came over to see how things were going. I turned to him and said, “Dr. U., are all these people your patients?” He laughed and said no, not at all. He asked how I was doing, I said trying to get back to my old self, and we went on.

I just could not shake wondering what this experience is like for him. I would imagine it is encouraging. The gym is like the other side of the mirror from the Cancer Center. Here we are, after treatment, with our gains and losses, training and being trained, going through the paces.

I like this gym because, unlike the college gym that is 5 minutes from my house, this one is full of middle-aged and older people like me. The college women are very friendly and kind, and it is fun to see what they are about (they know what they are about, those women). This gym is shabbier, and has ’80s music playing constantly, and the clean-the-machine etiquette is not so great (though Dr. U. had perfect etiquette, of course). I run into a lot more people I know at this gym, which has its ups and downs.

The order is in for my annual scan. So I will be doing that, and seeing Dr. U. in his office in a couple weeks. Everything seems to be fine. I am getting stronger. And we will see, but I expect all will be well.

 

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The One-Pan Phenomenon

The counter: 11-11-17

A couple Sundays ago, Steve and I went to Barnes & Noble. We do this every once in a while to check out the progress, or demise, of the book industry. It’s kind of like checking in on American trends.

We spotted two unnerving trends since the last time we were there. One: there are now several aisles devoted to spiritual self help books. They run the gamut from spiritual health in the form of herbs, oils, yoga, etc., to spiritual takes on relationships, addiction, career, etc. And while these kinds of books are nothing new, it felt to us like the labels on top of the shelves had shifted in a way that “legitimized” some of these books more than they should have been. They were organized– and there were so many of them– in a startling way. Meanwhile, philosophy, which is what Steve had been looking for, consisted mostly of the ancient major philosophers, collected works only.

Meanwhile, over in the cookbook aisle, I was making my own observations. Mostly, I was noticing that paleo is way, way in, and that 1-pot cooking rules. A large part of the side wall closest to the in-store Starbuck’s is dedicated to cookbooks. Last January it been full of gorgeous books with artistic photos of interesting cuisines and restaurant-inspired dishes. Yotam Ottolenghi still ruled with his Jerusalem cookbooks.

But this year, there was none of that. None. Of. That. Every single book on the first half of the shelving was some variety of one-pot/sheet-pan/instant-pot cookbook. We want to cook fast. We want to cook with a gadget. We want to cook on sheet pans for some reason. We want to set it and forget it. We are too busy for farm-to-table. We want six ingredients and a pot that can cook 10 different ways.

I can sympathize–I really can. But I felt deflated. And that is even though I had recently bought one of those cookbooks! It has the ultimate name: One Pan & Done: Hassle Free Meals from the Oven to the Table. Yes! No more farm-to-table or forage-to-table. Oven-to-table!! That’s the best! I wanted to immediately buy this book for my sister (not my mother as she is vegan and this book has lots of meat dishes). And I was going to embrace the short-cuts in this book. It does tell you how to make biscuits, but it encourages you to use the refrigerator ones you crack open instead. Yes! I’m in!

I recently embraced a recipe for macaroni cheese that is made from: macaroni, sliced American cheese, evaporated milk, butter. And I was surprised when the New York Times recipe newsletter I get featured a recipe for “Middle-School Tacos.” It calls for hard shells but no McCormick spice packet.

But I am also, as the weather turns, cooking up a storm. In fact, yesterday and today I tackled a project. I made beef broth from marrow bones I got at the meat market and a bunch of vegetables from the garden and farmer’s market. It was something I wanted to do last year, when I read about it in The Cancer Fighting Kitchen. I got 5 quarts after 12 hours of simmering. And this stuff is gold. In addition to the marrow, it calls for sweet potatoes and for konbu, the seaweed used in miso soup. Carrot and potatoes and celery and onion of course, and garlic and peppercorns and allspice. Even a leek, which I had from the garden. I packed the quarts into my freezer, which is so full I had to take out a loaf of zucchini bread to fit everything. Which is no bad consequence.

The counter still has tomatoes and greens on it from the greenhouse. I’m picking the tomatoes now at first blush, and they still ripen inside over the course of a few days. We plan on continuing to warm it at night with the propane heater for one more week. That should ensure some fresh tomatoes on the counter for Thanksgiving, though what I really want are the eggplants. They are growing so slowly, I don’t have much hope for them.

I know this past year has been tough. We are tired. We need more comfort food than we did in the past. But still, there is such good comfort food to be found. I had some lamb in the freezer from the farmer’s market. I split it for two recipes.

The first night, I pulled out all the stops and made the Ottolenghi recipe for “Braised lamb, eggs, tahini, and sumac” (sans sumac) to which I added the baharat spice blend from the back of the book.

The next day, equally good, I opened a can of garbanzos and a can of coconut milk and made stuffed squash from the One Pan and Done cookbook that was an equally big hit. I added rice (and lamb), and it was not exactly one pan. But there’s enough of that one for tonight’s dinner, too.

Eat well. Eat warm. Eat real food. Those are the only rules.

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Greenhouse Effect

This year I feel like a different gardener than in years past. It isn’t about cancer– all that did was lose me a year of gardening. But I’m more confident about all the crops, more in tune with what is ready when, have a little more time to “experiment” with multiple plantings and new items, and also I’m finally getting a handle on the garden improvements.

This year I finally got a workable fence around the garden, thanks to Steve, and in the last two weeks I’ve put down landscaping fabric between all the aisles and around the raised beds, basically the first real weed barrier. It was a good six hours of “laying carpet” on my hands and knees, but now Steve and Jeff are going to do the hard part and cover all that space with gravel. I spent way too much time fighting weeds and complaining about them this year. I will still be using my friendly weed burner around the outside of the fence and salting the exposed edges. I’m looking to replace the hard-as-a-rock clay bed where I’ve tried to grow onions, potatoes, and winter squash. After nearly a decade of amendments, the ground still gave only a sad, small potato yield this year. I’m moving on.

Of course, the greenhouse has made the biggest difference this year. And now I’m really experiencing the benefits. Every October we experience the “first hard frost” of the year, and that shuts down the gardens. This year we had three nights of frost. I covered the lettuces and greens, but the tomatoes and peppers all froze. The Brussels sprouts and kale are fine, but usually this would be the beginning of the end of fresh veggies.

We did return to warm days, and plenty of cool but sunny days when the greenhouse needed to be opened up. Out there, I continue to have loads of tomatoes and, best of all, a good number of eggplants. Eggplants! I’ve always been lucky to get two or three before the frost. But We’ve already had three rounds, there is babaganouj in the freezer, and there are two medium and 6-8 emerging/baby eggplants still on the vines.

Also, if I get even half of the tomatoes out there, we’ll be eating tomatoes fresh and in sauces until Thanksgiving. Tomatoes don’t need sunlight to ripen, just heat and ethylene gas, so it just depends on the temps. We’ll keep going until the temps are freezing during the day or the ponds start freezing. At some point we’ll have to turn off the water. I’ve started clipping off new shoots with flowers on the tomato plants, to get more energy into the existing fruit. But it doesn’t seem like the plants will give out on their own!

Last night and today we’re getting our first snow! The chickens took one look out there and went back in the coop. Except Goldie, who is intrepid, and took a brief jaunt to lay her egg in her prairie nest (the only one I can find and thus source of my one egg a day collection!)

But, as someone pointed out, I have the ingredients for fresh ratatouille on my counter!

So the greenhouse has been a definite game-changer. I am becoming OK with the fact that I don’t grow a tremendous amount of food (I’d love to say I grow enough for all three families on the farm, but I just grow “some” for the other families and enough for meager gifts to family in Chicago at Christmas). Seeing the amazing way cucumbers grow in the greenhouse, and eggplant, I’ll do even better on them next year. I’ll provide more calcium early to help the tomatoes, and I’ll probably grow fewer varieties. I might leave the beets for outside, but I’d like to try cantaloupe again and keep an eye on the mites for more prolific plants. I also already planted some scallions that will hopefully pop up early in the spring.

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Women and Cancer

OK, enough with the pause (haha), I have something on my mind and some time to say it.

This morning I was reading a blog by a friend who just had her last (16th) chemotherapy treatment for cancer. She lives in Japan. In a Facebook group for women in midlife that I am part of, three of us have had cancer in a year. We were supported by women in this group who have not had cancer but also by several for whom the experience is clear and ever-present.

Last month was Ovarian Cancer Awareness Month (go teal!!) but on October 1, when the man whose wife has had three rounds of breast cancer put my chicken in a pink plastic grocery bag, I knew what month this is. Bring out the football players in their pink shoes and put on your pink ribbon pins, folks, cause it’s Breast Cancer Awareness Month.

Reading my friend’s post, where she wrote about ways she has changed this year– connections made, love experienced, a new openness and awareness of strength– and ways she knows she will continue to change and realize changes in the coming year, I thought that in a way “women” is different than it was because of breast cancer.

Last week, when Julia Louis-Dreyfus announced that she has breast cancer, she said: “1 in 8 women gets breast cancer, and today I’m the one.”

How has the prevalence of reproductive cancers impacted female identity?

I hardly know how to answer, and of course to answer, is to answer how have reproductive cancers impacted the world.

Because this is America, we can start by the industry it has generated. I’m not talking about the treatment industry, which is in itself gigantic, and includes several options for implants and reconstruction. But if you don’t want breast reconstruction, there is a piece of the industry for padded bras/prosthetics. And the industry we’re talking about here is the beauty industry. Because: women. The industry tells you two things: you can (still) be beautiful and/or you can be/are brave. Beautiful and brave. Brave in your baldness– but with many beauty options. For me it is encapsulated in the American Cancer Society’s “Look Good Feel Good” event I attended in April 2016. What was interesting to me was that only one of us out of the five was actually there for the make-up. I gave mine to Steve’s aunt afterward. We were subjected to videos by a national make-up association and a fashion association with advice on how to buy clothes now and encouraging us that proper make-up could help us continue to look beautiful even as chemo took our hair. (It also severely compromises your skin, so using those cosmetics was out of the question for me.) The event was a way for several of us in treatment to meet each other, which allowed us then to check in with each other when we had treatment on the same days. It’s where I met my chemo buddy.

So, yes, we are pelted by the fashion and cosmetics industry. I did succumb somewhat. I bought some dresses and earrings in addition to lots of needed pajamas. (Once you’re finished treatment, you’re invited to celebrate by buying a new wardrobe!) I added the term “self-care” to my vocabulary. I had amazing and therapeutic “oncology facials” once a month during treatment– to call them facials is to completely misunderstand the therapy, which moved lymph and treated burning, damaged skin, and even once included a gentle abdomen mask(!!) And the caring attention from Amanda during and after the treatment was another relationship aspect– and deepened my understanding of and appreciation for therapeutic touch tremendously.

And that, I think, is the real area to focus on. If 1 in 8 women experience a year or more of discovering how strong their bodies really are (to fight it) and are opened suddenly to receive care and love from others, and to express love for others, all of which they continue to carry with them throughout the world, well– what does that do?

As more and more women learn that death is a part of life and that dying is a natural process, and learn to be with others as they die, to face death as well as life– what does that do?

 

When I was in treatment, my baldness identified me. I was approached by so many cancer survivors. We are in a world filled with cancer survivors. What does that do?

The “pink” has brought cancer survivors out into the open. And also the vast improvement to treatment– the anti-nausea meds particularly– that allow many women with cancer to be present in the world even during treatment. There is less stigma. And so we recognize each other and start to realize how many of us are in the world.

 

 

(*Photos of one of the sunflowers I grew this year. They are scary plants– like planting palm trees in your garden! But the results were surprising and great. I’ll have sprouts from my own seeds this February when nothing else to eat is green.)

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Pause

Dear Reader,

I started writing this blog back in 2008. I started it for a specific reason. I’d written an essay that I submitted to America magazine. It was a risky essay, and it was a nuanced one– about living in an imperfect church and in response to Barack Obama being heavily criticized for going to a church with a “radical” pastor. I got a response back from the magazine saying they would like to publish it in an edited form. The edited form removed the context (Obama) and was just my description of the imperfections of my own local church. I said no. And I really wanted to have an essay in America. To let them publish my essay in this eviscerated and seemingly gratuitous form was impossible– would have been immoral, actually.

So many times, in my relationship to publishing, I have felt pain– I’m not talking about rejection, I’m talking about the way my work has been treated by those who accepted it. And that experience with America was kind of a last straw. I wanted to write and get out to people what I was writing without going through that process. I started to blog.

At first I thought I would do mostly long-form essays. But I became a blogger instead. And I didn’t want to call my blog something clever, but just simply my name, a place people could find my work.

Soon after, I found cowbird.com, and I used that as a place for posting “creative” work. On the blog I wrote about life– which was more and more about growing food and cooking, and in the winters about movie and theater reviews. It was less what I was thinking and more what I was living.

In the years I’ve been writing this blog, I have also written many, many pages about the art of The Saint John’s Bible. I have written a collection of 100-word stories based on the oral histories of Benedictine Sisters I had the honor of working for from 2008-2012, called Habits. It did pretty well out there. I wrote another collection of poems, published in 2016, H is for Harry. I wrote an unpublished novel in several drafts, and began another I hope to finish in 2018.

When I received my cancer diagnosis in February 2016, all I could write for the next year was the blog. And through the blog I received tremendous support as people followed that way of living with me.

I’ve come out of chemotherapy and into remission, which I hope will be a long term remission. The longest. Sometimes I dare to ask myself– will I die of something other than cancer? As I meet and read about older ovarian cancer survivors, this seems possible.

I’ve also found myself in a big juggling act. I am slightly diminished in my mental and physical capacity. I am doing three small jobs, but they require me to change gears more often (or maybe my gears don’t shift as smoothly). I’m about to plunge into a major writing project (Religious Education curriculum) and know my fall will be full of that. I am still gardening and still cooking, and the greenhouse has added another layer to that activity. But I don’t find myself sitting down to write the blog entries– my camera fills with images I don’t post. Sometimes I don’t have my camera with me. The blog feels more like a burden than a delight.

I’ve been writing more poetry. It is a different poetry for me. It comes, I think, from working on poetry with children, and also from wanting to go other places in my imagination. I find myself not digging into my own life experience as much as casting out lines and seeing what strange things I pull into the boat. I’m publishing that on medium.com. If you’d like you can follow me there.

And I hope to embark on a big writing adventure in February, if I can get into a class at the Loft in Minneapolis and get back to that North Dakota novel I left behind in March 2016.

I’m thinking of also getting a clever handle on Instagram where I can easily post my daily harvest and my cooking projects. Oddly enough, I still go to this blog each year when I need my red pepper sauce recipe or my pickle recipe.

For now, it’s time to “close down” the blog, by which I mean just to stop regular posting. It will always be here, I hope, (though it might move again to WordPress).

Over these years, readers have come and gone. I’ve met new people online and enjoyed some who just dropped in (to tell me how their camel cooking adventures went, for example). I’ve also been able to more deeply engage with people I already knew. It’s been strange to visit with people in real life and have them know already what’s going on from the blog. Now I’ll get to tell the stories myself.

Thank you, dear reader, for your friendship and companionship these years. Keep in touch.

Love,

Susan

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First Eggs

I’ve been really having a time of it with my chickens. I am really starting to resent them. They are just not laying eggs. I put in two nice brooder boxes for them, and every time I filled them with straw, the chickens pulled it all out. I thought they might want the boxes higher, so I stacked them. Mostly I just let them range and kept an eye out anywhere chickens might lay eggs.

Blackie, the last remaining Silver-laced Wyandotte, runs over every morning to the neighbor’s barn, where she lays her egg if she has one to lay, and where she hangs out with her friend “Old Red” until evening. We often see her ambling home across the Commons while we’re having dinner on the porch. At least she is entertaining.

My niece Dale came for a 3-day visit and we looked around for possible caches of eggs. I expected the four young chickens to start laying mid-July. That’s six weeks of frustration that has built up.

She left Tuesday, having made salsa and picked tomatoes and dug up one of the potato bags, and having eaten very nice eggs– from someone else’s farm. The chickens themselves didn’t come around and let her inspect them, either. They mostly hid beneath the pine tree by the pond.

But let’s back up. Everything was fine back when I had six lovely chickens, so adorable, often lining up on the garden cart. See how those Wyandottes all look alike??

The trouble began when we started hearing crowing. Definitely crowing. Starting at 5 am and continuing through the morning, afternoon, and into the evening. It bounced off the other houses back at us. But I couldn’t tell which of the Wyandottes (it had to be them) was the rooster.

Until I got a closer look at the tail feathers. And realized if one of these was a rooster, so was her sister. A few weeks ago we dispatched both of them while they were still tender.

I thought the hens might perk up and lay after that, but as of Tuesday, no eggs anywhere to be found. Then on Friday, I looked down next to the front door, behind the arbor vitae, where many things seem to fall, and found EIGHT green eggs!

Steve and I celebrated immediately by making a good veggie scramble as a side dish to the Friday ribs and although ribs are my favorite meal, the eggs were better.

Now, poor things, they are spending the weekend in chicken prison. And I am a fierce warden. Water and feed, well, and when I’m feeling bad for them a sleeve of very stale Ritz crackers, and this pumpkin they had already started eating when it was on the porch.

The idea is to get them to bond or at least accept that they must lay their eggs in the new brooder box. I had to do a lot of whining to get this thing, and Steve worked hard on it. Look at this deluxe piece of construction. Rain roof even. Cozy spots.

But so far they are avoiding it. No one has even gone inside to press down the straw. They’re busy dining on crackers. And when two finally broke down after 36 hours and lay their green eggs, they did so in the coop.

So that’s two eggs of the three Americaunas. I’ve yet to see a brown one from the remaining Wyandotte, and Blackie, well, she can just get to know these girls better. Wouldn’t hurt her to be a good example and lay in the brooder box. But I’m not holding my breath on that account.

 

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